Cousin Bonding

26th March 2016

It’s Black Saturday and Tita Zheny & Alexene were about to come over for a little family get together. So what we did when they arrived was eat, explore and talk. Just the usual doings of a get together. We— Mae, Popoy, Alex & I went near the river because we wanted  to see what has happened to the cleaning of river. We also got to spend time with some of our cute little kid neighbors as they were playing there throwing rocks— like what we also did when we were kids (well, exclude Alex for she’s based at Taytay, Rizal).

Perhaps for you it may seem just so plain and normal day. But for me, it is my kind of special day for we barely see each other and bond together even though we stay in only one compound. Well because Gladys and Pauline have been working already. Oh how time flies so fast.

Going back, it was already late in the evening when Pauline arrived home from work. Let’s say it’s already 10:45 p.m. The moment Pauline parked her car, we suddenly jumped inside it and joked around about eating out and we were trying if she will be treating us out. So what happened was Pauline said that she is willing to drive us somewhere as long as we bring our own money with us. In short.. kkb (kanya kanyang bayad). 

So we went to Starbucks to buy some coffee to keep us awake, McDonalds for some snack and Burger King to buy Auntie Nilda a pasalubong. All these are for our movie marathon/sleep over.

For you, it may seem just a normal day. But for me, it is my kind of special day and a day of creating more memories together with my cousins.

I am so happy that we get to spend our childhood all together. Thank you for these little joys. These simple joys are my kind of favorites.

Trust and mistrust

Do we always have to control other people’s perspectives and preferences?

Just now, I saw a tweet of one of my closest friends saying “how can you trust someone who doesn’t even trust you?”.

Every single word in my head kept popping. It was really bothering me. So I decided to write my thoughts here. I want to express what my head thinks about that tweet.

Well, for me, I think it’s just a matter of trust issues. Maybe just either one of them (the person whoever she’s referring to) or maybe both of them had their trusts broken before.

Trusting someone is ridiculously hard nowadays and I am aware of that. But don’t you think it would be nice to give it a try? Or to take some risk? People are not all the same. Some people may break your trust and a few may not. So, what I am just pointing out is basically trust. Start giving the person a seed and see if he’s going to plant and take care of it. If it grows, then that’s the sign, maybe?

 

Maybe it’s a sign that your heart can now open its door to trust once again.

A feeling that has never really gotten away

Last night was my friend’s debut at One Shangri-la Place. I attended and you also attended. Yes, I think, we both knew that both of us will attend the said event. That did not matter because first, we don’t care about each other anymore, right?

I sighted you from afar. Believe it or not, I unintentionally looked at you.

We were praying that time. The venue was a bit dark because some lights were switched off. And then I chose to look around. Someone’s shoes caught my attention and I looked at her from shoes up to head. I was just looking at her and then I saw a man in my peripheral vision. I got curious of who it was. Then bang! I saw you, and you also looked at me too but I immediately turn my head in front. That was really awkward!!

From friend’s debut, I arrived home and chose to see our (used to be) memories’ box. I read your letter from my first birthday with you.

Those lines made me cry. As in, it stroke me real hard that after I read those three short sentences, my tears were literally flowing down my cheeks. I don’t know why. I used to think that I have already recovered from it. But, I’m confused why did it strike me?

where everything started

 

“When you’ve got a real deep wound,

there would always be a part

that would not heal 

and still aches.” — Gennie Geronimo

Valentine’s Day Get Away

It’s 14th February 2016. First time that we (together with my 3 cousins/besties) were able to celebrate that sort of special day. Okay, so here is what happened. We spent that whole day away from our hometown. We went to Tanay, Rizal. Specifically at Sierra Madre Resort & Country Club.

We’ve got to (sort of) trek, swim, and of course appreciate the nature itself. The road going down the Spring Valley was kind of green inferno setting. (Yes, it is that grassy and never ending walk!) Well, it was fine with all of us since we love exploring and having good long trips. When we reached the pool area, there was still a way going down to the falls. Of course because we are that curious people, we changed our clothes to swimming attire and went down. We were a bit disappointed because there was no place for swimming/bathing. It was just a plain falls, then the rest of the place was full of huge rocks. So we decided to just take a few photos and then went straight back to the pool area then there we swam.

Guess what?! The temperature of the pool was a damn melted iceberg! (Well, what do we expect of Rizal’s temperature right? Lol.) But of course we still decided to swim. We craved that thing! Hah it was just cold at first. We just took a quick dip since we have planned to go straight to Antipolo’s Cloud 9 (a high peak where you can see a 360º view of Manila). So, after we swam, we just washed half of our body so we could eat our lunch meal yet. BUT, it took almost 2 hours finding a place where we can dine. We have tried 4 or 5 dining places but failed because it was already past 1 p.m. (Uhm, yes you’re right, we’ve got to eat our lunch at 3 in the afternoon.)

Before heading back to Cogeo, we waited for a jeepney for at least 30 minutes. Then there it goes, the jeepney was already full loaded! The driver shook his hand signing there’s no more vacant seats for the four of you. Thinking that while we were eating our lunch, we hoped to sit at the top of the jeepney! (Wish granted agad ‘di ba!) Everyone (literally) was looking at us. We were thinking that time “what’s wrong with girls sitting at the top of the jeepney?” And while riding at the top, I was the one who thought of waving our hands to people we pass by. Some waved back, and a few did not. But it’s okay, at least we made some of them happy and we also enjoyed waving at them. (Feeling artista ang mga lola niyo.)

That time when we rode the jeepney topload was the highlight of our day since when we reached Antipolo, accommodating people going to the Cloud 9 was cut. (Because it’s February 14! Hate it! What a happy day bummer.)

Here are some photos that we took that day:

I also uploaded a video on my YouTube Channel. You may watch it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKH5zvZTgqM

 

The day of my legality

11th of February 2016

Right after our NSTP Class, GnM got this for us. They posted it on our school’s freedom board. (Nakakahiya ng very light. Lol) Ano sabe ng itsura ko?? Hahaha!

At home, I got a Birthday Surprise from my best friend, Menggay! That was super epic because I caught her posting pictures. (But she was done already that time. Haha but still.. it was kind of fail.) Thank you bunches. I love you!

On the next day, 12th of February,

we, GnM, went to Greenhills. Spent my and Louise’s birthday through playing Lazermaxx and having a dinner at Shakey’s. Everything that happened today was really fun. Mixed feelings. We fought, got exhausted, excited, and everything. And for the second time, I caught one of my friends handed the cake to one of the Shakey’s staffs, but I acted like I saw nothing just to not ruin the moment. Haha!

 

Thank you, friends! Much love

Reading: The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom

I have just started reading this book since I just finished reading Every Day by David Levithan at around 2:00 a.m.. Now, I just want to share a bit of my reviews. I intensely loved Every Day! It left me crying on the last two chapters of the book (that was actually the reason why I immediately transfer to the next book on my reading list).

This book could be done on just one sitting. That’s how shallow David Levithan’s words are. I’d probably gonna be reading his other works too!

What if I told you that I love you the time you were leaving? Would it make a difference?

Maybe.

Maybe you could have stayed.

But if I have said that —I must be lying. I must be fooling you. Because the truth is..

I just loved you because you felt incomplete. Because I thought —I really thought that I could fulfill the emptiness in your heart.

But all those were just maybes. Maybes that fall onto uncertainties. And sadly, we can’t just hold on to this life’s uncertainties.